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[sexyoldgirl]

Personally, I'm playing with the machine in an attempt to make it work.
I have no intention of getting involved in the battle. I'm not a Battle TARDIS. Though I can treat injuries if need be.
When the machine is fixed if any of the Doctors stay then so do I.

[expect]

Why would any of them stay?
Why would you stay?

[sexyoldgirl]

They are quite mad. He generally doesn't stick around when the savings been done but there's always a chance he might.
And I go where he goes. Any of him.
I do enjoy getting the chance to talk, or have you forgotten that I'll lose this form when I return?

[expect]

There must be a way around that.

( he hadn't forgotten… he'd just assumed she'd be able to go back, step through a door or something, and be the same as always, and the actual TARDIS would be, too. he knows objectively they're the same thing, but emotionally… well, he's only human; he responds more to her as another human than as a spaceship/time machine.

suddenly he feels a bit sick, as he does realise his assumption. )

[sexyoldgirl]

There isn't. It's just not possible. If there was a way the Doctor would have found it long ago so he could have someone to talk to.

[Or to feel less alone after they lost everything.]

This body will die upon my return.

[expect]

But this is different. This place is different. No offense to him but your in a body again and its been months without you dying

[sexyoldgirl]

Yes. This place. It has nothing to do with what he can and cannot do. I cannot exist in our universe in this body. Not with the power of an exploding star burning through me. Here I'm not nearly as connected to that power. Like there's a filter.

You don't even realize how limiting this place is for me. Once I lent my power to one of the previous strays and she could de-atomize Daleks, scatter words through time and space, bring a dead man back to life and give him a near-immortal life. It nearly killed her in a matter of minutes.

That sort of power cannot be allowed to exist outside of my box. It can drive a human mind mad with power and this brain of mine is very human at the moment.

[expect]

That other place wasn't our universe either. You died there right away. Whatever changed you here it can keep you changed. ( after a long pause. it's the only argument he can think of, at all. )

[sexyoldgirl]

I was in our universe when I died. [Die, whichever.]

And that was still better connected than this universe is.

I'm sorry. I know you don't like it but it's something I have to do when I return home. I want to be with him forever, I need him like you need oxygen to survive. And I can't do that like this. I've had more time with him in this manner than I ever thought possible and I'm grateful for that but no one knows better than I that all things must end.

[expect]

There can be both
Theres got to be a way for both, this place isnt our universe. Even close

[sexyoldgirl]

Kind-hearted Rory.
You can't win every battle.
This is one of the one that must be lost.

[expect]

Why are you just giving up?

[sexyoldgirl]

Just giving up?
You think I haven't thought about this since the moment there wasn't a giant monster attacking the ship?
That I haven't considered everything I could possibly think of to not hurt him when this body dies?
Because I have and the only choice I have is to remain here in this universe if I want to keep this form.

[expect]

There are about 80 different versions of the Doctor here
There has to be something more than thinking
How can you just accept it

[sexyoldgirl]

I can accept it because I must.
I will not stay here without him just so I can keep this body.
That's not how it works.

[expect]

No middle ground?

[sexyoldgirl]

I'm rubbish without him.

[expect]

Its mutual though

[sexyoldgirl]

A bit, yeah.
But he can live without me.
And he can live without me like this.
It's likely that we won't even remember our time here, even if we are the ones sending ourselves home.

[expect]

Not a bit
Not even close to a bit

[sexyoldgirl]

He'll be just fine once I'm back in my box.
It's not as if I'm completely leaving him.

[expect]

He'll be sad

[sexyoldgirl]

Yes, he will.
It won't be the first time or the last.
All I can do is be there no matter what he decides to do.
I've no intention of persuading his decision one way or the other and I don't want you to either.

[expect]

But without even fighting?

[sexyoldgirl]

Without even fighting.
Because that is how much he means to me.

[That she is willing to lay down this human life of hers to do what he wants without kicking up so much as a little fuss.]

This is going to be hard enough on him as it is without me adding to it.
I refuse to put anymore guilt on his shoulders then he'll already have.